Is it Reasonable

If a man goes into a jewelry store with his wife to look at a particular piece of jewelry, an upgraded wedding ring to be specific, is fair to assume that he will be purchasing said jewelry in the near future? I say "yes."

My husband and I recently went into Jared's to look at wedding rings in platinum settings. We looked at a specific rings that would hold my diamond from my original gold setting, per his suggestion. I knew going in that we would not purchase any ring that day. It was meant to be a process to determine what I liked, would it work with my short fingers, metal types and price. We were very up front with the salesman, so everyone involved knew nothing would be purchased that day. When he asked when we were looking to buy, Steven had said in December.

OK, so in December we have Christmas, our anniversary, and my birthday 3 weeks later in January. I honestly believed that I would receive a ring in December for said occasions that are so close together. And some how this evening, the topic came up. Truth be told, I am not sure even how it got started. Anyways, he said that I would not be getting a new ring anytime soon. In fact, he got pissed that I had believed I would be receiving one. Then he says I can sell my ring for $500 to $600 dollars and invest it and then get a ring later. There are so many flaws with that thinking from him. 1) He said at the jewelry store that he would want me to keep my center stone for sentimental reasons. 2) My husband invests money for long term, not for a short while to get me a ring. 3) If he loses it, then there will never be a ring. A new diamond would be increase the price of new ring exponentially.

This brings me to my question again. With all the info from above, was it a reasonable conclusion from my end to assume a new ring would be a gift from my husband in the very near future?

It's almost here

So, summer is almost here. K's last day is Thursday. M has been out of school since mid-may. That has not been too bad. I fully admit that I am not ready for them to be out for the summer. I am not sure how it is going to go. I am some what dreading it. I need to decompress. I feel like I am about to burst. Apparently, I don't find scrapbook retreats relaxing like I thought I did. It requires thinking. I need something that is mindless. No thinking required. I was hoping that S would take the kids to Arkansas by himself for a few days so I could literally just veg out, but no. He is not going to. He could to go see his side of the family, but he won't. Going out of town to see family or friends by myself is no longer fun. I don't enjoy doing it all by myself. And the downtown that I do get without them no longer out ways the constant keeping vigilant of them. S gets to go to a conference for a week in the fall that I am dreading and will go out of my mind if I don't get some massive down time by myself prior to that. I will be very bitter towards him if he does not step up his game. I was hoping to take a cruise this summer that I could literally take them to the child center that they have so that I can be by myself as much as possible, but that is not going to work out financially. I am finding myself having small panic attacks now and then. They come after a stressful day or whenever my mother-in-law comes over. I hope that the pills I have to accommodate that will be effective. We will see.

Now that I have mentioned my mother-in-law, she actually drives me crazy. I actually have panic attacks after she leaves my house after a visit. When she is around, my heart pounds, my blood pressure likely rises (I actually don't know for sure since I cant measure it), I get hot, I sweat. I wait patiently for her to do or say something stupid. She almost always does. In fact her last visit, she was able to piss me off with 2 different statements. The last one really pissed me off because she had the balls to say "I was heartless" since I had no plans to take the kids to Arkansas and make stops at her parents house. First, I am not planning on a trip to Arkansas this summer by myself or with Steven for his niece's wedding shower. If he chooses to go, he will be taking the kids with him or he will not be going. Second, lets just say I was going to Arkansas by myself with the kids. I WOULD NOT UNDER ANY CIRCUMSTANCES take them to her parents' house or any one else related to her. I never have and I never plan to. EVER! I can't stand that woman and wish I could not talk to her the way her only daughter does. However, that does not happen often since they come over quite a bit. I have been answering my phone when I see my father-in-law's number, but way to often he is just calling me on her behalf. I will have to stop answering his calls as well.

That's all I got, how did you like that?

Yet again

It never seems to fail that when I go to the grocery store, my husband bitches. And I mean every fucking time without fail. This time was no exception. (for his record, it was about the salsa, chicken, and buying cleaning supplies at Kroger rather than anywhere else.) He bitches when I don't go and he bitches when I do go. So, why in the hell would I want to go do something if I am going to get bitched at either way. Doesn't make any sense to me. Just wanted to put it out there as a record. He is a bitcher.

And here is a useless list of things I can't stand but do anyway. And they are in order of least favorite to most tolerable.
1. Going to the dentist
2. Putting up with my mother law
3. Going to the grocery store.
4. Anything else

I am bored

I am completely bored. I was going to be spending a quiet evening with dh watching tv doing mindless work when he got a better offer. He went to go play tennis with a friend. Understandably so. I probably would have gone too if I wasn't leaving him on Friday to go scrap.

Anyways. I need attention. Seriously. I just need somebody to pay attention to me. Make me the center of their world for a while. I don't know. Just something other than speaking the phrase "I've got (fill in the blank) in my pants." Anything else will do. Anything

I wish I were hot again. Like the way I looked prior to getting married hot. I remember one time that a guy saw me at a gas station as he drove by. Stopped and turned around just to come hit on me. That is the kind of attention that I used to get and would love to get again. I want to get a 2nd look from men as they pass by. I want somebody to blatantly look me up and down with no regards to getting caught. That would make me happy. Seriously happy.

So, in conclusion...I am bored, need attention, and wish I were hot again to get attention.

The end.